Life Is About Challenges, Welcome Those Challenges....(Part 1)

Someone whom came across the path of my life a few years ago, a devout Christian, his name is D*v*d D*ly once said to me, "Yani, life is all about challenges, so welcome those challenges!".....ha, mamat ni gila ka apa....but that's the reality of life, fair or unfair. I have also read in my Don't Be Sad book about tafsir surahs....Allah will test you in many ways...Allah will give you rezeki from the punca-punca yang you tak sangka-sangka (both I have and am going through)....

I was very excited to go home yesterday from work, managed to settle whatever that I wanted to settle for the week, and leave the rest for next week..and it was also after pay day...yehah, apa nak belanja anak and laki nih! My CEO also announced the company's result to be super excellent...hmmm got huge fat bonus ke nih!??

I left the office early as I had to pick up Khadijah and Yusof from their house practices, dropped by to bank in Madam Sifu Masak's fees for pizza class on Sunday and packed Nasi Kukus Ayam Dara (moi didn't cook yesterday) for dinner...but all the excitement, turned into my cold heart to sink when hubby called and told about someone's very dear's CA125 cancer marker results that went awfully wrong......why oh why....the damned C* penyakit!

With this news, coupled with the fact that Hajar has caught the cold and fever bug..left me terkebil-kebil difficult to sleep.....all those ups and downs and turbulence that I had gone through kept flashing back...oh sungguh sakitnya as if a sharp knife were piercing your heart...it was more sakit when you were going through the episode, only to realise after that the tests are for a reason, the iktibar is not only for you but also the world and people surrounding you (kalau depa semua nak ambik iktibar-lah!)...

God bestowed us with one of our greatest test in 1999....at about 2.30 am on 09081999 after a very long and painful labor, Kauthar arrived in this world, she was blue, quiet and shivering...I passed out after the delivery and Kauthar was rushed to the NICU...she had a heart that looked like several bullets have pierced through and a hypoplastic lung...her right side of the lung had collapsed...and she was on 70% oxygen....

The next day I went to her cot and saw a group of doctors around her, macam semut kerumun gula.....

Mom Of The Year Award!!? Moi??

Naz....I am so honoured with the nomination....ish ish, jauh sangat kayu dari panggang ni, especially if compared with you. There are so many things unsaid, so many stories untold about me, my feelings towards my kids, how I treat them, jeng jeng, taklah I taklah dera depa semua....but I know no matter how inadequate, hopeless I am, my children loves me very much...they'd better be, penat aku kerja siang malam cari rezeki to provide them with what I think is the best for them!

Okay, let's get down to business...

1. Admit one thing you feel awful about (involving being a mom).

Having to say good bye to all of them in the morning, especially if they ask..." Mom what time are you coming home tonight??"

2. List 7 things you love about your kids, you love doing with your kids, or that your kids love about you.

i. They love eating what I cook...in fact they savour every bit of the food...apa nak kata, for someone who treats her kitchen as her playground...I feel relly appreciated!

ii. Naturally, eating (kalau tidak penatlah I masak), I love eating with them, and them, same too!

iii. Spoiling them with what they ask for...alah sekali sekala, apa salahnya, bukan benda grand pun, all kids stuff..but lately yusof dah pandai mintak nak shop in topman and Khadijah in zara??? Ibraheem nak boxers from St Michael...ini lawan tokeh ni!

iv. I have all the different personalities, choleric (bossy), melancholy (follow the book type, particular), sanguine (happy go lucky, as long as I'm still alive I'm ok...that's me!) and phlegmatic (go away, don't disturb my boundry) and various combos of the 4 personalities (P/s You can read Personality Plus by Florence Litteure to learn more) in all my children, so they are definitely fun and full of life and give me the circus life every day!!

v. They love bunking with me, sleeping or watching tv or reading in my room, so with baby no. 6 on the way, am thinking of getting king sized bed!.

vi. Since my kids are very well fed, they are very yummy to gigit...grrr!

vii. They are the reasons why I'm still here standing strong, despite the ribut, petir, halilintar...alhamdulillah..

3. Send this to 5 other moms of the year that deserve a reminder that they too are the best moms that they can be.

Mrs Nordin - She inherited older children from her husband's previous marriage, however, hats off to her for bringng up and handling the children very well, even though she is still a "new" mother with a young child!

Superwomanwannabe - She's quirky and funny in her own ways, a very talented lawyer, always a last minute thing person, however, I still wonder how she raises her 4 princesses and 1 price to become very prim and proper and very clever in their studies ,too. Nevermind, if you are not cekap in the kitchen, but I lurve your mee siam!

A Peek Into Life, Lyana - Young mom, very courageous and brave. I don't think I can do what you doing now and be you.

Breakaway, Sham - A sexy kinky mom who refused to admit she's a tai tai, but really the house, the children, the husband won't be where they are now without her.

Naz - One, whom I need not describe more...other than...how do you do it? You are so very passionate about your children..I am kayu who are hopeless in showing my feelings towards my children and my husband, but love them all, no less.