Someone whom came across the path of my life a few years ago, a devout Christian, his name is D*v*d D*ly once said to me, "Yani, life is all about challenges, so welcome those challenges!".....ha, mamat ni gila ka apa....but that's the reality of life, fair or unfair. I have also read in my Don't Be Sad book about tafsir surahs....Allah will test you in many ways...Allah will give you rezeki from the punca-punca yang you tak sangka-sangka (both I have and am going through)....
I was very excited to go home yesterday from work, managed to settle whatever that I wanted to settle for the week, and leave the rest for next week..and it was also after pay day...yehah, apa nak belanja anak and laki nih! My CEO also announced the company's result to be super excellent...hmmm got huge fat bonus ke nih!??
I left the office early as I had to pick up Khadijah and Yusof from their house practices, dropped by to bank in Madam Sifu Masak's fees for pizza class on Sunday and packed Nasi Kukus Ayam Dara (moi didn't cook yesterday) for dinner...but all the excitement, turned into my cold heart to sink when hubby called and told about someone's very dear's CA125 cancer marker results that went awfully wrong......why oh why....the damned C* penyakit!
With this news, coupled with the fact that Hajar has caught the cold and fever bug..left me terkebil-kebil difficult to sleep.....all those ups and downs and turbulence that I had gone through kept flashing back...oh sungguh sakitnya as if a sharp knife were piercing your heart...it was more sakit when you were going through the episode, only to realise after that the tests are for a reason, the iktibar is not only for you but also the world and people surrounding you (kalau depa semua nak ambik iktibar-lah!)...
God bestowed us with one of our greatest test in 1999....at about 2.30 am on 09081999 after a very long and painful labor, Kauthar arrived in this world, she was blue, quiet and shivering...I passed out after the delivery and Kauthar was rushed to the NICU...she had a heart that looked like several bullets have pierced through and a hypoplastic lung...her right side of the lung had collapsed...and she was on 70% oxygen....
The next day I went to her cot and saw a group of doctors around her, macam semut kerumun gula.....
Yani,
ReplyDeleteThis is so sad... I wish you'd finish the story...
Sorry to hear about your SIL. I hope you all will be strong.
yani....we are praying for azura...hope for the best..
ReplyDeletekak yani ..sedihnya...sambung la cerita..
ReplyDeleteKG, i played your song - Tunggu sekejap - and will put the whole programme in the blog - insyaallah - tapi memang susah segala technicalities ni.
ReplyDeleteKG - so sorry to read about what you had to go through. Each of us have our own challenges. Insyaallah, kita bersabar dan yakin kepadaNYA.
ReplyDeleteDear Yani, CA125 saved my life! Back in 2006, when I did my annual blood test, my result for CA125 was really high. As advised by my doctor, I did another test a month later, semakin tinggi. Jumpa specialist, scan, buat tests; suspected big C dekat my left fallopian tube. Tambah pulak lagi ada cysts. Mak oi!!! Allah aje yang tahu macamana hati I. After getting many, many opinions from different doctors/specialists, I decided to operate. Tanya my GP kalau dia yang kena, Dr mana dia pergi and I went to that Dr. Nasib baik Allah izinkan I hidup. Dr managd to CUT semua diseased tissues. Tapi it means total historectomy. Dr kata nasib baik belum kena saluran kencing. Kalau tidak bawa 'beg' seumur hidup. Walaupun kena deal dengan 'instant menopause' (siksa tak terkira dengan hot flushes, sakit lutut tak boleh jalan, sakit gigi dan gusi tak boleh makan, dll), I bersyukur yang the big C was caught in time. So sisters, please add all the cancer markers when you do your annual blood test. Kalau pelik tu, follow up. Kadang-kadang bukan big C tapi infection je. But worth to do it tak kiralah you all umur berapa.
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