Bila Tiba Hari Raya.....

Bila tiba Hari Raya.....semua insan bergembira...... but, it would not be the same for the Ahmad Omar and Meriam Baharom household this year...as it is MIL kept on saying...kalau Azura ada, dia dah buatkan Mak Choc Chip Cookie...kalau ada Azura, Yani tak payah buat Tart Nenas...yes, kalau Azura ada, the chores before Raya in Muar would be shared between me and her.....but sometime after Raya last year she said me...Kak Yani next year I tak nak buat Tart Nenas lagi...penatlah! Yes, I remember vividly those words...rupanya.....

MIL and FIL dropped by for iftar on route to Muar yesterday...and those were amongst the words constantly being uttered by MIL...she has been hit hard, in fact all of us have been hit...MIL will be in Ayer Baloi until the eve of Raya...so, that leaves me with the preparation for all the makan on Raya day. She has ordered some food from Busu, like the previous years...but this year,it is as if it is just another day.....usually we will discuss the colour coordination of the bajus that we will adorn...this year MIL just kept quiet, and not even a hint of what colour tudung she wanted me to get her.....

I have bought a few packs of Bombay Beryani masala, I will prepare that for the first day of Raya.....my tummy and the kids' and hubby's need rice, ketupat and rendang and lodeh would not be "filling" to the tummy's satisfaction...

I have packed some Samprit for MIL, and Almost Famous Amos Chocolate Chip...the plan is to bake Lapis Cempedak, Lapis Prune and Tart Nenas tonight...I made a boo boo with Biskut Suji last night...I was too tired and sleepy that I used all the wrong measurement, so the batter which I swung into my tong sampah would have "arrived" Sungai Gombak already ! I have cleared my fridge this morning after sahur while waiting for my Petit Vanilla Cuppies to bake, so that leaves me to pack my baju raya only tonight....That department about packing bajus belong to my hubby! I only do mine...lega! The cuppies will be served during kenduri tahlil on the eve of the first Raya...100 days of Azura's passing.....

A few of Azura's friends will be visiting MIL in Ayer Baloi...so sungguh sedih this Raya, I cannot imagine how it will be like on the day itself......

* the picture above was taken on Nabil's birthday celebration...Azura had the signs clearly indicating that she was suffereing from Leukemia when she bled profusely that day from her menstrual dischage...she almost fainted, but we did not know then....and it was the last picture taken by me when she was fine and healthy....