Monday, 22 February 2010

Numb......

My hands feel so heavy, I can't bring them to compose a proper sentence...there are many pictures of cakes and stories behind them, stories about my children, stories about how I feel about my future...but numb is the best word to describe my feelings now....she has completed her second cycle of chemo about 15 days ago, but she is fighting some sort of infection that manifest itself that is known to me as fever and shivers for the past 9 days...I tell people who visited her to show a happy face, a big smile but I have to fight back tears everytime I see her, caress her or apply olive oil on her body...I can't imagine the pain she is going through, looking at her is painful enough for me...
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11 comments:

  1. Madam Tai Tai Again22 February 2010 at 17:53

    Dear Yani and Haq, I pray that she will pull through it all. Take care and stay strong, ok.

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  2. Anonymous22 February 2010 at 19:45

    Sorry to hear this Yanie. Kita doa sama2 and put all the good vibes out there so she will come out from this soon.

    Take care.

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  3. tireless mom23 February 2010 at 00:09

    I feel sorry and sad for her. Hope all will turn out to be better and may the numbness disappear.

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  4. cikjema23 February 2010 at 09:17

    Dear Kak Yani and Abg Haq,

    Insyallah everything will turn up good.I pray the best for her health.The most important , we must always give her our support and motivate her to be strong.Do take care ok!!

    Best Rgds,
    Hazmah@ Farrish

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  5. Unknown23 February 2010 at 09:51

    Yani,

    Think happy thoughts.

    Be strong, she needs u.

    Hugs.

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  6. mamasita23 February 2010 at 11:45

    So sorry to hear the news..hopefully she'll get much better soon..yeah..I feel tearful inside too..kita doa2 banyak2.

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  7. Puteri's territory23 February 2010 at 12:16

    Salam Kak Yani,
    Sorry to hear about the predicament you are in, hope everything will be ok.

    Anyway I've been a follower of your blog for quite sometime now. I'm just very impressed and fascinated with your cake work.

    I know this is a wrong time to ask, I live in PJ and very much would love to order your cakes. How should I go about doing that?

    You take care Kak Yani. My prayer is with you and your family.

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  8. MHB23 February 2010 at 13:10

    KG.. take care and take it easy, ok... leave the rest to Him...

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  9. t o r t s23 February 2010 at 22:43

    you're doing all u can, a great job as a sister... being there mentally n physically. doa ..

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  10. KG25 February 2010 at 09:31

    Gina MTT, Yatt TM, Wiz the Wizzard, Azma cikjema, Aida, Kak Uda Mamasita, Puteri, Tina, and Ita, thank you for the prayers, kita sama sama doakan...as for her present state, I tak nak reveal...am thinking of my next move with her..

    Puteri, thanks for dropping by, please email me at haqyani@gmail.com. Tqs.

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  11. Cempodot1 March 2010 at 14:03

    I went to visit her a couple of weeks ago and felt the same. Berat mata memandang, berat lagi bahu memikul. But I am truly amazed at her fighting spirit. She can still smile through it all and still do most of the things herself. She's one tough woman. I don't know what to do for her other than doa that she recovers soon and in the meantime, go through her treatments in comfort. Wish I can do more.

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