A reminder to self...

Due to the recent events and heartbreaking news, I have stopped to look at myself and ponder. The news had shaken us physically and gave a jolt like an electric shock. A lot of people asked how the disease could get my SIL, what has she been doing to herself, etc. It is as if a curse had befallen her and us!But, yesterday I spoke to one of my closest friend whose SIL experienced the same disease, liver cancer. Her SIL reminded her that all that came from Allah is good and only He knows why. And that had awoken me from my "dream" sort of....yes there is a blessing in all this happening and all that came from Allah is good!

I have decided to resume baking and taking orders and try my best to return to normalcy, inshaallah...

Liku-liku Kehidupan

As I sit here, or anywhere, I have been feeling numb lately. I try to cheer up, for my family, but I feel my chest very heavy...

First, Muhammad was admitted due to acute bronchitis last week. That was a blow to me as it reminded me of how Ibraheem had his athma...and he still has it now. Muhammad is now recovered and I am still finding other alternative medicine for him. Tak sanggup tengok dia gulp down those drugs like Ibraheem has been doing! I have tried giving him a tiny bit of menuka honey and habbatus sauda oil, so far, Muhammad looks good.

But, the biggest blow came on Saturday when my SIL Azura, was admitted to Damasara Specialist Hospital for some rare blood disorder condition. What came to mind immediately was leukemia, mashaallah, God forbid.

Much earlier this year, I posted a story about her being tested positive for CA125...but that somehow came out negative, and she was having a stomach TB instead, also a very rare desease. Since that eposide she has not been really healthy with bouts of cough and cold.

But yesterday, her doctor in APSH confirmed that she is having an acute leukemia, I don't know what that really means, but, her bone marrow is 80% cancerous....

I visited her after work yesterday and she seemed in high spirits. Next she will be transferred to UMMC and she will have to go through three cycles of chemotheraphy...whatever that means to me, am also not very sure. I mean the after effects, the support that she needed, etc. I have obtained Raden Galoh's number through Shaheida, so guess I will ring her one of these days.

I know the world cannot just stop just because of this, but hey, it's only about 10 days after awal Muharram, and I can't imagine what's next to come for the family. I guess everyone has their own fair share and I pray that all of us will have the strength to face this mega challenge. Amiiin....