Numb......

My hands feel so heavy, I can't bring them to compose a proper sentence...there are many pictures of cakes and stories behind them, stories about my children, stories about how I feel about my future...but numb is the best word to describe my feelings now....she has completed her second cycle of chemo about 15 days ago, but she is fighting some sort of infection that manifest itself that is known to me as fever and shivers for the past 9 days...I tell people who visited her to show a happy face, a big smile but I have to fight back tears everytime I see her, caress her or apply olive oil on her body...I can't imagine the pain she is going through, looking at her is painful enough for me...

I love em bananas...

This post is dedicated to Kak Zai Day in Day out...hmm finally.... And yes, I love bananas, especially pisang emas, well, what do you expect from a kampung girl from Baling nih! Remember my posting on Carrot Cake with bananas in it, this one is Chocolate Banana Cake.

Actually, I have found two versions of the cake, one that has chocolate pieces in it and the other with cocoa powder all incorporated in the batter. I have tried the earlier.... and of course, not being a master in baking I have to tweak the recipe again, he he he....I sort of merged the original recipe from Cupcakes From The Primrose Bakery with that of How To Be A Domestic Goddess, and the result .....jeng jeng jeng is this:

Chocolate Banana Cake

125 g unsalted butter

150 g caster sugar

1 teaspoon vanilla extract

3 ripe bananas, I used pisang emas

100 ml buttermilk

2 large eggs

1 teaspoon bicarbonate soda

1/2 teaspoon baking powder

300 g plain flour

50 g dark chocolate chopped

Preheat oven to the temperature that you are used to like 170C.

Melt the butter in a saucepan, take off the heat, add the sugar, vanilla and soft bananas, mashing them with a fork in the pan. Stir in the buttermilk and the eggs, and beat to mix using a wooden spoon. Add the bicarbonate soda and baking powder, and stir in as well, and then finally stir in the flour and the chocolate. When the mixture is well blended, divide equally amongst muffin cases. I made 36 using medium muffin cases.

These are lovely with a blob of cream cheese for afternoon tea....mmmmm..loved the banana and vanilla aroma....