Yang Tersirat dan Tersurat.......

Muhammad in APSH

When it rains, it really pours...Muhammad was admitted in APSH again on Tuesday due to bronchitis. I was just recovering from a long bout of cough and cold and am still grappling with the current situation...but that's life. So, I have to put on hold my routines when it comes to this blog and slowly move myself towards normalcy again..

Apart from my sil, a lot had taken place lately, but all shall be kept to myself. I am bracing myself for yet another change, it is really daunting but I have to take that big leap and DO IT! This feeling is similar to that when I finished reading Who Moved My Cheese and when I jumped from banking to legal.....

I will update stories on cakes and recipes next week, I still haven't found the time to upload photos from my dslr....whatever it is I am really grateful for the support that I have been receiving from friends from this blogsphere, you all are amazing, thank you!

Hajar, as cheeky as ever in one of her favourite t-shirt that belongs to Muhammad!

That bird is me, looking at the winding road.....

Last but not least for now, all I can say what is written here "tersurat" is far from what is in me "tersirat"....take care folks!

Numb......

My hands feel so heavy, I can't bring them to compose a proper sentence...there are many pictures of cakes and stories behind them, stories about my children, stories about how I feel about my future...but numb is the best word to describe my feelings now....she has completed her second cycle of chemo about 15 days ago, but she is fighting some sort of infection that manifest itself that is known to me as fever and shivers for the past 9 days...I tell people who visited her to show a happy face, a big smile but I have to fight back tears everytime I see her, caress her or apply olive oil on her body...I can't imagine the pain she is going through, looking at her is painful enough for me...